how about a couple more songs since its been so dang long?
im for you. toby mac.
when the stars go blue. tim mcgraw
im sitting in a crowded starbucks in a city of 4 million people and somehow i feel alone. im supposed to be on this journey to see friends and its been a great time. oooo vegas. it was grand. but now heading back to reality in the next few days. where do i go from here? im restless. i have a new job waiting for me in dallas and i am excited for that. but why am i always wanting to know what is NEXT?? why cant i appreciate the here and now? im sitting at starbucks waiting for tonight. and tonight i will be planning my drive back to san diego. and tomorrow i will be planning my drive from san diego to dallas.
CHILL OUT ELISA.
adrienne told me not to look at what MIGHT BE at the end of the tunnel before i even go through the tunnel. its a difficult thing to grasp. and if you have, please guide me. until then. ill be looking at my ical and planning what i cannot control. the future.
so much on my mind. dont know where to start. i thought i could focus in here. but between the tatted up hippie playing words with friends in my direct eyeline (im making better words and i just want to tell her) the girl facebooking next to me, the old guys designing a terrible night club, and the spanish girl screaming on skype with her best friend assuming shes the only one on planet earth that speaks spanish, its harder than i thought.
i miss my brother. random. i know. my thoughts are like a....whats that game?? i realize when i figure it out i could delete this, but that would take away from really telling you whats going on in my.... A PIN BALL MACHINE... head :)
i also realize i have three brothers but im assuming you, diary, know all, thus you should know i mean barrett. i miss all three of my brothers, but i miss the relationship with b. distance wise i miss them equally. but ive lost him. and dont know if ill ever get him back. i feel so whiny. i also feel like i should make this post private cuz who really cares? maybe this is for my own good.
herumph. im over it. ha. sorry this post isnt quite as inspiring or motivating or enlightening or anything else of that nature. ((since i know you think my last posts have been all that and more))
heres to a good night in la with friends, wish me luck world wide web.
Your never alone, He's always with you and is always opening the door for you. The sincerity in your writing is present, don't censor you, just write, don't apologize you either. Ur beautiful and wonderfully made. Regarding your future, well this life is a journey with him, and everyday is all you have, where is yesterday and all of it's worries and splendors? Gone, a meer memorie with a lingering sent of repercussions and consequence , enjoy the journey of each day, seeking His will for you in that day, and the way that looks, is by asking him from your heart and going on your way. He always listens when you pray, never think otherwise. Let tomorrow come at it's time and enjoy who you have chosen to be when you woke up!
ReplyDeleteHave an amazing drive!! Keep up the writing