Peace beyond Understanding

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:6-7

Boom.

So there you have it.

I'm going to Nepal in two days. My blog is called Sabbatical freakin Sally for crying out loud. I should be excited right?! This trip has been planned for 18+ months. It was supposed to be last October then was postponed. The anticipation has been insurmountable. I started counting down from 80 something days. Tons of family and friends have donated hundreds of dollars to make this possible. I raised over $3,800 all because everyone knows this is my dream. To travel the world and take pictures and bring awareness through my images. So why now. Why this? 2 days shy of finally going...

And I don't want to go.

Cold feet maybe? I've told people to look out for my blog posts from the trip... I'm sure this isn't what they're expecting. Hell.... It's not what I was expecting! I have no idea where this... Anxiety? Came from? If that's even what it is? I have traveled across the world by myself. I wasn't even doing any good... Except some good ol fashion soul searching, surfing, exploring, and meeting new people. I wasn't doing humanitarian photography. I wasn't capturing images to help bring awareness. I wasn't feeding hungry babies. I was just playing. This trip is everything I want. I leave in two days and its all I can ever talk about dreaming of doing. I will literally be living out my dreams.

And I don't want to go.

And so here I am standing before you, God. Help me. I need this trip. It will be a life changing trip. A new chapter. The beginning of what I want my photography to be. Capturing weddings is great but am I really changing the world? I want to make a difference. I want people to be moved by my images. I want to show people what is going on on the other side of the globe. Help me. Give me peace beyond understanding. Relieve my anxiety/fear/stresses. Help me. Flight leaves for Nepal in 1 day. 10 hours. 32 minutes... So anytime now would be great, God. Thanks!

Peace beyond understanding, World Wide Web. That's not too much to ask for is it?

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