Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragements, and impossibilities. It is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak.
Thank you, Paul for this much appreciated and much needed quote. it came at the perfect time.
the trip was amazing. i will briefly tell you the three weeks i spent in colorado were ridiculously amazing. i learned so much and had time to finish my website (work in progress, always). i spent so much time with the Lord and with people i care about and people i aspire to be like and look up to. i learned a lot about myself: who i am and who i want to be. i had time to THINK. to just be. to sit and look at the mountains and be in awe of all God has created. i had time to realize what i want. and also what i dont want for my life. it took a sabbatical to realize i wasnt on the path i wanted to be on. thinking about all the times i have let myself be led astray by people or things or my reactions to actions. its time to decide the right path for me. im so excited to be back in dallas and getting back on track with my life. i am in control of my life so i need to act like it. i need to show that i care which direction i go and put effort in doing so. glad to be coming back to a new job, fresh slate, my pub night bible study crew, my supportive family, and whatever else lies ahead. i know God has amazing things planned for my life and i am excited. its the first time in a long time i have felt just excited. im just happy. im happy in traffic. im happy grocery shopping. im happy working. im happy editing pictures. im happy. ive always been a happy person, but that JOY that only comes from God is what i feel more than i have felt it in a long time. and realizing that God didn't change, i did.
(((excerpt from Plan B, by Pete Wilson:
We must decide if we are going to put our faith in what God does or in who God is. In this life, many of your questions will simply not have answers. If you place your faith in what God does, you'd better prepare yourself for frustration and disappointment because you're never going to figure out God's ways this side of heaven. That's because God is God! As he told the prophet Isaiah.
'Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts' Isaiah 55:9
Why are you going through what you're going through? I dont know. Is what you're doing God's will for your life? I dont know. Will it be over soon? I dont know.
But through it all, God himself will never change. This is why our faith must rest on his identity and not necessarily his activity.
And who is he? He is the God who is faithful. He keeps promises. The God who is with us every moment and is in the process of working all things for good...Even when the bottom seems to be falling out. Even in the midst of Plan B, you really only have one task, one calling. And that is to do what you would do if you were confident God was with you.)))
K its me talking again...
God is a good God. and its great to see what he is doing in my life and the lives around me. and sometimes it has to get worse before it can get better. and sometimes we have doubts so we can believe again.*
after the three weeks in colorad0 (castle rock, denver, copper mountain, fort collins, vail, breckenridge, silverthorne) i headed to the 4 corners, moab to see arches national park, the grand canyon, las vegas, san diego, los angeles, back to san diego, then made the 23 hour drive home split between two days. the trip was amazing. i had so many plans to see people and do all sorts of things and i did a lot but God also opened and closed doors along the way. i saw who i was supposed to see and learned a lot and had a great time with people i love.
vail was amazing. i went to spend some time with some people i had only met a few times at the restaurant i was working at and we had a wonderful time. i completely fell in love with this family. i know God put them in my life for a reason. they are incredible people and i am so excited to have gotten to know them and now have the opportunity to continue our friendship back in dallas. i love you frebergs! ((my adopted family))
like how i said i will BRIEFLY tell you about my trip. ha.
ive barely touched on colorado. wait til i tell you about san diego.
im just torn on where to move next :) ha. maybe im just a restless soul.
i will say san diego sunshine is more appealing than that colorado cold. maybe i wont settle for one place. *perpetual travel*
ending note: what spoke to me most from March 23 One Year Bible reading:
Psalms 66: 1-20
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%2066:1-20&version=NIV
1 Shout for joy to God, all the earth!
2 Sing the glory of his name;
make his praise glorious.
3 Say to God, “How awesome are your deeds!
So great is your power
that your enemies cringe before you.
4 All the earth bows down to you;
they sing praise to you,
they sing the praises of your name.”
5 Come and see what God has done,
his awesome deeds for mankind!
6 He turned the sea into dry land,
they passed through the waters on foot—
come, let us rejoice in him.
7 He rules forever by his power,
his eyes watch the nations—
let not the rebellious rise up against him.
8 Praise our God, all peoples,
let the sound of his praise be heard;
9 he has preserved our lives
and kept our feet from slipping.
10 For you, God, tested us;
you refined us like silver.
11 You brought us into prison
and laid burdens on our backs.
12 You let people ride over our heads;
we went through fire and water,
but you brought us to a place of abundance.
13 I will come to your temple with burnt offerings
and fulfill my vows to you—
14 vows my lips promised and my mouth spoke
when I was in trouble.
15 I will sacrifice fat animals to you
and an offering of rams;
I will offer bulls and goats.
16 Come and hear, all you who fear God;
let me tell you what he has done for me.
17 I cried out to him with my mouth;
his praise was on my tongue.
18 If I had cherished sin in my heart,
the Lord would not have listened;
19 but God has surely listened
and has heard my prayer.
20 Praise be to God,
who has not rejected my prayer
or withheld his love from me!
if only you knew how loudly that spoke to me today....
take it in world wide web. will check back in soon.
Just want you to know we are still reading, so keep writing.
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