Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Okay, OKAY! I hear you!!

I was taking a before bed shower, listening to a random mix of country music on shuffle from my iPhone. I happened to be singing along (seeing as how I have heard all those songs about 100x since they are on my iPhone) even though I wasnt all there mentally. Im not sure why but for some reason my head just wasnt all there. Then suddenly I realized I was about 1/2 way through a song I love. By Eli Young Band! Love them! I started singing it louder. And louder. Then I paid attention to the lyrics... Then...I froze.




You've got a heart that's broken and a will that's given up
A cynical mind and a soul that's worn and rough
You're a fighter, no one can get the best of you
Don't let 'em stay too close, that's why you play every man for a fool

I don't care, you can live your life alone

Was only tryin' to show you how to love again
Tried and tried to chip away your heart of stone
Was only tryin' to show you how to love again

How are you gonna fall if you don't take that leap

You live in fear, fear of lovin' me
And I'm givin' up, I'm givin' up on you
Because you'll never change and
Givin' your heart away is one thing you won't do

I don't care, you can live your life alone

Was only tryin' to show you how to love again
Tried and tried to chip away your heart of stone
was only tryin' to show you how to love again
love again.....

I don't care, you can live your life alone

Was only tryin' to show you how to love again
Tried and tried to chip away your heart of stone
Was only tryin' to show you how to love again
Love again.......



Signing out, world wide web.

-heart of stone

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

on marriage

watched definitely, maybe last night. I forgot how much I love April in that movie. I love everything she says.


I think I feel like this...

"You're asking me to give up my freedom, my joie de vivre for an institution that fails as often as it succeeds? And why should I marry you, anyway? I mean, why do you wanna marry me? Besides some bourgeois desire to fulfill an ideal that society embeds in us from an early age to promote a consumer capitalist agenda?"
 
But if someone said this...

"I wanna marry you because you're the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time that I saw these hands, I couldn't imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?"

then maybe I would reconsider

but thats what these movies have done to us. theyve made us think that that exists. and maybe it does.

but maybe...maybe you just

"Forget about the real deal. You don't find it. It finds you. You get to a certain age and then you're ready. You know, you're ready for kids, or commitment, or a mortgage. And the person that you're with then...they become the one."